Ruth Ayres writes in her blog (https://ruthayreswrites.com/2019/01/03/lets-write-2019/) about choosing a word to live by each year. This year I am choosing to intentionally live the word peace – freedom from disquieting or oppressive thoughts or emotions; absence of mental anxiety; a feeling of calm and tranquility; harmony.
It’s going to take peace to challenge the negative thoughts that invade my mind on a daily basis…”I’m not good enough.” “I’m not thin enough.” “I’m not doing enough.” “I don’t have enough.” “I’m not happy enough.”
It’s going to take peace to walk away from friendships that no longer fill my cup or feed my soul.
It’s going to take peace to focus on creating a better “me”. A “me” that is seen, heard, and valued for my gifts and talents.
It’s going to take peace to accept myself as I am right now…a work in progress.
It’s going to take peace to look deep inside and make decisions about my future…What is my purpose? Is this where I belong? What if I fail? Do I play it safe?
It’s going to take peace to do the hard things, the right things, when everyone else is doing the “expected” thing.
It’s going to take peace to challenge a system that is failing…failing to grow leaders, failing to grow compassion, failing to grow trust, failing to grow respect.
It’s going to take peace to find a way to smile when I feel like crying, laugh when I feel like dying, and let go when I want to hold on even tighter.
It’s going to take peace to accept that others may not understand me, accept me, or share my values and beliefs.
It’s going to take peace to continue to live in a world where a woman’s worth is measured by the number of friends on Facebook, the number of Instagram followers, the size of the home she lives in, the car she drives, and the number of things she owns.
It’s going to take peace to forgive myself for the mistakes of 2018 and see 2019 as a new beginning.
Let there be peace and let it begin with me.